This and That…

Thursday, January 16, 2003

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* Quick Mother Theresa update… you may remember I talked about her crisis of faith earlier. I was aware she had also underwent an exorcism before she died, but had no proof. Here’s the CNN article.
* Well girls, I’m packing up for Sundance. I have been so on edge today… nerves, nerves, nerves. Parts of the day I almost felt like I was on the edge of passing out, like my vision sort of clouded a little or buzzed with static. My stomach has been in knots… Mostly it’s because I know the whole story will be front and center again, with all the attendant emotions and feelings. Sadness, nervousness, etc, etc. Some people have said, “Well, if it’s so difficult, why don’t you stop putting yourself in that position.” That’s a good question. The answer is, that it’s important to me personally to make this mean something. By being available to media and activist groups who want to do respectful coverage and actions, I can help do that. Barry’s Mom will be there, which is wonderful. I always feel nervous talking to her, because of everything, but she has always been completely nice and compassionate towards me, which is amazing considering her loss.
* I was unable to speak at all for a week after the TCA event… a combination of nerves and voice strain. I hope I will be a little stronger for Sundance. Sometimes I wish I did drink, ha ha. But oh well.
* I got some incredible care packages today. Bridgett and MeeMee sent donations, which is so incredible. I feel awful for soliciting them, I wish I were rich enough to just run the website for free, but I send out a heartfelt thank you to them! And Angel Electra in Nashville sent me a MAC care package! Wow, she was amazing… even sent it to me by quick mail. So she has guaranteed that I will be able to put my best face forward and not scare everyone half to death!
* Of course, after my involvement with Soldier’s Girl, Andrea & I are also going to take in the short films and a few workshops on the business. Our production company, Deep Stealth Productions, has an amazing short film in the screenplay stage and we will be working hard on this in the coming year. It will be an exciting opportunity to put even more positive, self-empowered images of transgender women out there. Some of the best filmmakers in the country will be there, so wish us well in finding some good connections for learning and inspiration.