Justin Fisher Released from Prison

In 1999, on the night of July 4th, my boyfriend PFC Barry Winchell was murdered in his sleep by Calvin Glover, at the direction of Justin Fisher.

Several weeks ago, I received a phone call informing me that Justin Fisher was to be moved to a halfway house, and then released from there on October 26th, 2006. He would then be a free man. Calvin Glover currently remains in military prison, serving a life sentence.

In GLBT circles, this story still remains at the edges of awareness for people, and it is so associated with me that many people think that it must be something that I talk about all the time to everyone who will listen, but I actually try not to discuss it personally very often. I am asked about it, and it comes up through mention of the movie “Soldier’s Girl”. In recognition of how moved people have been by the story, and out of respect to Barry, I always try to acknowledge their genuine sympathy and interest, but I don’t dwell on it because it makes me miserable. I know all too well that if Barry had never met me, things would probably be very different now, although who can say for sure since testimony in the trial revealed a history of abuse from his roommate Justin. I only knew Barry for a short, intense period of time, during which we spent every day together that we possibly could. But I have probably thought of him in some way or other every day for the last seven years, three months and 23 days.

Honestly, this long time later, the whole thing mostly leaves me feeling sad. Sad that such a sweet, good person was treated so cruelly, betrayed by people he trusted and an organization he loved, and then murdered. Sad that his family has been deprived of someone who must have been such a source of pride, comfort and love. And even sad that Justin Fisher and Calvin Glover made such horrible, cruel decisions, ruining their own lives and the lives of their innocent families, though my sadness at the waste of their lives does not mean that I do not feel they deserve to pay for their unforgivable crimes. For everyone’s sake, most of all Barry’s, I wish none of it had ever happened.

Click to hear “Dreamer” by Toni Childs, the song that was supposed to be in the movie “Soldier’s Girl”

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16 thoughts on “Justin Fisher Released from Prison”

  1. Hi Calpernia:

    I truly appreciate how the events surrounding Barry Winchell must cause you to feel a myriad of emotions. I want to add one more thing that makes me sad; it is that such a beautiful, sensitive, intelligent and caring woman was robbed of someone who loved her by selfish, bigoted sociopaths and what I feel is a brutish, self-absorbed and immature system. You have the right to love and be loved Calpernia, and no one had/has the right to deny you that.

  2. I think you made a great point in that everyone lost from this including Justin. What I wish for you is the happiness you really deserve and the peace to live a normal life.

  3. Hi Callie,

    I haven’t really said much of anything, I have not known what. Now, I’m still not certain what to say, but I know what I feel.

    Everyone lost. No-one really deserved it. We all lost, and I pray daily for a better world where no-one has to lose like we have.

    I lost someone to violence too. I read your book too soon and was lost for a time to the echoes of my own loss.

    Now, I grieve with you, for you, Barry and all the lives touched. I grieve for my Earl too.

    I can so see why you like “Dreamer” and while I have yet to see the movie, I know it should be at the end. There is this almost Miami Vice feel to dreamer, like one of those scenes when something IS happening that is bad, or they are “thinking” back over something or someone lost. Me, I couldn’t help but think of Earl, and I’m gripped again by the sadness and loss.

    You deserve, WE deserve, to be happy and loved. We both found it once, held it, embraced it, knew it. The fire in my heart, the dream in my soul, is to be so blessed again. Barry and Earl will always be with us, their love, goodness, and lasting gift to each of us, is that for a time, love was real. Their love was real.

    Hang in there girlfriend and know he, they will be remembered and if there is any justice in the universe they are happy and safe somewhere watching the Giant’s snatch defeat from the jaws of victory, or some such.

    I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to get so deep. Didn’t mean to make us both sad. So if I did, forgive me? I just needed to say something. So I’m sending you a big hug, and a heartfelt thanks. You’ve touched a bunch of lives, and touched mine, and I’ll be forever grateful. You helped me see that I could do this, could survive it, and make a new, different, even better life for myself.

    Thank you Callie and I’m so deeply, genuinely sorry.

  4. I have a human sexuality class that I am in and we watched soldier's girl today. I have found myself torn of this world of hatred we live in. living in my sometimes own world (going to work, going to school and getting up and doing it over and over again) I have found myself wondering why one should really care about how another lives one life be it, seuxality, job, interests or whatever. It really just should not even matter, but the reality it does, to most people. I caught myself wondering how it must have been for you and i just can not even begin to understand how hard it must have been for you, and still contunies to be. As one woman to another I find yourself to be a true inspriration in that we should be who we want to be and strive for a better world with so much less hate for another.

  5. I have a human sexuality class that I am in and we watched soldier's girl today. I have found myself torn of this world of hatred we live in. living in my sometimes own world (going to work, going to school and getting up and doing it over and over again) I have found myself wondering why one should really care about how another lives one life be it, seuxality, job, interests or whatever. It really just should not even matter, but the reality it does, to most people. I caught myself wondering how it must have been for you and i just can not even begin to understand how hard it must have been for you, and still contunies to be. As one woman to another I find yourself to be a true inspriration in that we should be who we want to be and strive for a better world with so much less hate for another.

  6. I recently heard the story of your boyfriend Barry. I support all military personal AND gays and dont think that people should be excluded from protecting our country because of their sexual prefrence. Personally i REALLY dont care what their sexual prefrence is as long as they are protecting my freedom and the whole "Dont ask Dont tell" policy is a bunch of BS. People should be able to be themselves no matter what their sexual prefrence. I think Justin Fisher should have got a life sentence as well because he was responsible for the death of Barry as well. The fact that he is now out REALLY pi@#es me off. I hope you are doing alright and remember you are loved no matter what anyone says and Barry is loved as well wether he was gay or not. With much love and support,Christina

  7. Dear Calperrnia
    I support everything you have been going through this whole time and I support who you are I don’t care if people are gay or not I like them for who they are I don’t care what people think of me anyways I just wanted to say sorry for your lost and everything and I wish those guys would have got more time in prison they deseve the worst for what they have done I have seen Solider’s Girl and tears run down my face evrytime I watch it that’s how bad I just can’t take that their are so many people out here doing the same thing to people and their familes it kills me to see that happening to people just because they r bi or gay lesbian it just kills me to see it and I hate it but I wish you the best of luck bye bye

  8. I love this movie!! But I do not watch the end no more. I think it is so shitty how it all turned out. I honestly think Fisher should have been in there longer. He is the one who made this all happen. Glover he so stupid to listen to someone. I hope he gets his butt beat everyday in there. If I ever see if Fisher I’d probley hit him in his mouth.

  9. I just saw the movie … I am speechless … my tears have not dried up yet … I don't really know what to write here but just had the feeling that I had to. I hope that one day this world will be better, that people can be who they are and can love who they love without being judged for it …. I have the greatest respect for you …

    Kisses,

    Mounia (from Holland)

  10. Calpernia,
    I can only imagine what thinking about Barry may make you feel. I wanted to temper your feelings of regret by saying that, however briefly, Barry had someone to love, and he knew he was loved. you gave him that. And that's all we all want out of our brief lives on Earth.

  11. Calpernia, glad to greet you.
    your story seems to me a very bad taste for acts committed against your boyfriend, I tell you because I too am a soldier and not God so wants something to happen elsewhere in the world, unless a decision to share life with you who makes you happy ….
    Calpernia I love you. truly.
    surprise I found the film in memory of barry made ​​online.
    well, just wanted to tell you that my greatest support,
    Andres Moran Moran … bye!

  12. As a Transsexual female, I first read (Tranformation Magazine) about the tragic story of you and Barry Winchell some years ago and now after watching the Movie (DVD) SOLDIER'S GIRL it is more the tragic and see myself in you and the pain of losing someone you loved so much. Your strenght, prose and dignity is such an inspiration. Keep the light of life burning brightly.

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